I've wanted to run a marathon for at least 3 years now. It's always been a goal of mine. I love running, the girls from my high school new that, and I was voted, "Most likely to run a marathon" senior year, lol.. along with "nicest person" or something stupid like that.
I've done 8ks and 5ks, and I'm doing a 5k this Sunday with my family for breast cancer (although I will be walking it).. my mother is a 5 year survivor this year. (: Also doing a 5k turkey trot with my best friend, which we will be running.
Anyways, the Bank of America just had their annual marathon a few days ago, and my legs are itching to do it. I can run 5 miles right now (on good days) without stopping.
I know I can't do the marathon while having an eating disorder and that tears me apart.
I don't want to recover, I'm not ready, I won't even attempt to fake that I might be ready.
But I really want to run this bitch next year.
I want to be happy.
I want to be free.
but I don't want it bad enough.
You don't have to be in a rush to run the marathon but hopefully someday you'll be able to :) it's good though that you realise you're not in the condition to run a marathon, but I have no idea how you (or anyone) can run 5 miles :p (I hate running lol)
ReplyDeleteAnd I'm not surprised you were voted "nicest person" too :)
Take care, xxxx
Nicest person! <3
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Good luck on Sunday, that's lovely, you must be proud of your mum ?
Good luck in the turkey trot too, that's such a cool name as well , haha.
Aww, I'm sorry, that is trully shite.
I hope that one day you can put your dreams before your state of mind.
xxxx