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Really struggling, not like before, it's worse. I can't describe. This time, it's different. I don't care who notices, who sees...
I just want to disappear and want people to just let me go. It will be better off for everyone.
I can barely place thoughts into words, I'm sorry.
The only thing keeping me eating before running is that I don't want my sister to see me faint. She's the one I'm trying to protect. She's the only one home when I run. I hope she doesn't notice how little I eat.
I don't know what is different this time. Usually I have an idea of what triggered me. This time, I don't.
I haven't bit my nails in over 3 weeks.
I want coffee.
I'm sure you disappearing wouldn't be better for everyone :( You seem like such a lovely sister.
ReplyDeleteHope you're alright xx