you know you're fucked up...

... when you have a constant headache.
... when you over act your laughs or smiles so people think they are genuine and that you're happy.
... when the only time you eat is in front of your family, just so they don't worry.
... when the most important things are no longer important to you.
... when even water scares you.
... when sleeping is your only escape.
... when you can only sleep by taking sleeping meds.