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whycantyouseeme

I just want to sleep so so much.
Popped some pills. Just 4. Just enough for my thoughts to fade.
and disappear.
Then maybe I'll disappear.
If I'm lucky.





One of my greatest fears is to still be fat on my wedding day
Idky
Idky anyone would want to marry me
But I've never told anyone that fear before.
It's silly.

Have you ever seen 7th Heaven?
I love my family, like them a lot most days.
But I've always wanted a different one... Dreamed of a different one..
And the parents on the show seem so perfect.
Kind. Loving. Caring. Open. Emotionally supportive.
Act like they give a damn.

sleep sleep sleep.
Maybe just one more.