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so depressed it hurts.
so tired.
so done.

low low low low dirty dirty sick die die.
cut cut cut.
cry cry cry.


my head hurts. =X
on some new meds that take my appetite away.
lol.
anorexia = loss of appetite.
what is an appetite.
it more like, takes my thoughts away.
i can't explain it.

dirty.
i feel so dirty.
i am so dirty.


ishouldhavefoughtharder.
ishouldhavefoughtharder.
ishouldhavefought.
ran.

at least I did the last time. ran.
son of a bitch.
burn in hell.

with me?

uhglfshgljkfhglf.

literally squirming in my own skin.
i want out out out.
sitting here all day, i keep moving around to try and get away from myself
but i just fucking fucking fucking can't.


fuck someone just take me away, please.


please please please.


just make it stop.
i want to stop.

happiness? what's this?

i'm tired of running to the bathroom to cry because i'm too exhausted from pretending to be happy.


i hate crying over the silliest things, because those things are the only thing that i'll allow myself to cry over.

thishurtstoomuch.

not good.
so tired.

WHAT

In my abnormal psych class today, my professor was like, "Does anyone know what amenorrhea is?" And I just said, "The loss of your period." And he was shocked anyone knew the answer and asked me how I knew what it was. I was like, "Uhh, I don't know!" And I chuckled.

Situation averted.



Now he wasn't talking about ED's. He was talking about somatoform disorders. But still.

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